so. here i am again.
quite depressed at the moment. i love my boyfriend, but why does everybody keep bugging us? even my closest friend bailed on me. i don't know if she even likes me anymore. "i don't know what to believe anymore, i trusted you but now.." and so on. that hurts me. i told her i was sorry, but she seemed to ignore it :( she said that she had tested me. is a friend supposed to test another? to test a friend??? i think of it as extremely hurtful.
plus mom and dad keeps bugging me all the time. in 10 months i'm 18 years old. i've had a boyfriend for soon 4 months, and i can't even sleep at his place?! omg..!! i'm so pissed at that!
damnit...
i'm really depressed.. take it away, please. but.. i guess it can't be helped. the only way out of it is pure suicide. sorry.. but i don't want to leave him. i love him.
