Monday, February 12, 2007

valentine's day O.O

mihi, beramoon likes. just kidding xD

i guess, everything's solved now. i'm happy and my stomach is full. tha day couldn't be better! :D
i love my boyfriend so much, and all my friends.

soooo.. the day after tomorrow is valentine's day. i can't wait! X3 i know exactly what to wear and to give him. but.. still i'm so excited. kyaa, my heart's in a rollercoaster :D

i wanna be in a room full of roses and candles, lots of chocolate and strawberries, and him.
i luuuv ya so freakin' much Niclas baby <3

i have to clean my room, and change my sheets and i want to go shopping ( i can't believe i'm really saying that :S shopping? me? wtf is going on with me?! xD)

wellll... i want to watch naruto all day long and i want to listen to my music and read fruits basket and i want to kiss him all day long.

oh my gosh like today, i stand right next to him and i miss him so much. i just wanna pull him away from everybody and everything, so it'll be only the two of us.

tomorrow i'm gonna meat agnes and my brother, wow that's gonna be so fun! i haven't met agnes for such a long time now :O i really look forward to tomorrow, and the day after that. ooohh, and two days later it'll be a school break for a week. maaahhh, i'm in such a good mood right now i feel like i could explode! xD

bye bye XD

Monday, February 05, 2007

For Lisa, my homie for life :D

Oke. this is how it is.
I lied when i said that i didn't see you in school. and i'm sorry for lying, i really am. but that's the only lie i've told. (it's the only real lie i've told at all what i can remember) but hey, you have lied to me too. i forgive you for that, we're friends right?
But i didn't say anything to you in school because i thought that you didn't wanted to talk to me.
I AM SORRY, OKE? i really mean it, for everything. i have told you several times "i'm sorry" but you just won't seem to listen to me. why?
everybody makes mistakes, right? but that's no reason to stop being friends right? i'm sorry about that weekend, i admit it, i could have been a little more focused on you. let's do something again can't we? like go to the cinema or something, i don't know ^^
i hate this, i hate having that feeling in my chest all the time. when we're not friends i don't feel good. i want us to be friends, laugh together and all that stuff. now when you're around for a while, let's do something. or what do you think? hm? :)
we are friends. at least that's how i think about you. i'm sorry for all that. i've said it a million times, why can't you just forgive me so we can be friends?

do you think i'm a bad person or what? that i can't be trusted by anyone and i cheat and lie to get everything the way i want it?
you know me, damnit, you know i'm not like that. i haven't changed into something like that, and you know it. i'm still here, i'm still me. sure, i can be really stubborn sometimes, but that's me.
i like you very much, and you know that too. Don't you remember the time when i used to be really depressed, you were the only one i could talk to and be with freely. you were the one true friend i could count on. don't you remember? you meant everything to me.
you still do. i feel like i could tetll you anything, i don't have to act around you and you are one of the closest friends i've got in life. see?
you can't possibly mean nothing to me, see? you know this. you know all this. :)

and you know where to find me, so if there is anything, anything at all, give me a call? or come visit me. anything. you can call me three o'clock in the morning if you want. anything for my friend. right? :p

so i ask again.. can you forgive me?

(förlåt, men jag gillar inte att skriva på svenska. det låter så.. underligt haha ^^' skriv tillbaka nånting iaf efter att du har läst det här, det skulle uppskattas hehe :P )